Tumblr.

http://jakobysks.tumblr.com/
The cool kids are doing it and I wanna be cool.

That is all!

Stay safe.

_jakoby

No more Blogger.

Except for the one that tells you what my Tumblr page is.
It seems Blogger is outdated and out of style, there for irrelevant.
So, for the 5 of you that read this: I'm done here!
See you there.

Stay safe.

_jakoby

New & Inspired.

Chiodos with Brandon Bolmer....
Amazing.
So excited for the new album.
Another band to add to the list that has done everything that I love.
That has made their band MORE than music.
So psyched for this album.
Pre-ordered it actually.
An actual, physical copy.
Weird, I know.
Ordering that actually got me all inspired to start my own CD collection back up.
To actually own a copy of everything I have.

Kinda gonna suck to backtrack and purchase my thousands of dollars worth of music...
And track down all the discs I already own.
Oh well.
Worth it!


&
If this can't get you excited for music, I don't know what can.
Gonna be EPIC.

Oxygen.

Wrote and recorded this today.
Still needs a little work and some cleaning up, but here are the words for your enjoyment.
n_n

It doesn't take much anymore to start a fire, of this I'm sure.

Like water, watch me float away.

And I'm sorry, you don't feel the same.

I know you're not the one to blame.

But, I'm sorry things turned this way.

And Oxygen.

I need your taste.

But so you know, I'm alright, I'm alright.

I made a list and wrote your name.

I stared at stars and read the page, watched the words turn to space.

What's the worst that I could face?

Cross my heart and hope to fly, in this car we are speeding by.

I'm just here for the atmosphere.

I wanted so much.

To let you go, a goodbye.

I'll get by.

Goodbye.

As a whole, definitely doesn't have a standard structure, or really one at all, but I'm finding that's what I'm best with.
Hope you'll dig it when it's all done!

Stay safe.

_jakoby

There's Something About...

A kiss.

At the end of the night.
That takes all those doubts you had throughout the evening and erases them.
Because somewhere, and perhaps often, you did something right.

It's... Refreshing and reassuring.
There are so many things in a kiss and the moments surrounding... I can't even get into it, it twists my mind RIGHT up.

And I love it when... A song, my song fits another moment.
Finds another meaning.
Because, in that moment, I have done what I set out to do.
Mean something to someone and make a difference.

TO be that outlet.
Even if that person is me.
No, especially if that person is me, because I'm the hardest the person to please, my worst critic, and the fact that I, for the first time in my life, was completely proud of the music I created, filled a little hole for me and let me know that what I do, will be able to do the same for another.

Last thought of the night... It's so strange, the passing of time, the passing of moments.

The mere thought of time and what it actually is sends my mind into a frenzy, so I'm gonna stay away from that and onto my point.
It is strange, to me, how two, almost complete strangers, can go from awkward silences and hesitant laughs to the complete opposite in a single night.
The mental transition from stranger to friend astounds me.

I don't know how to put it.

I'm just so curious.

And wish to know so much.

Leads to loads of late nights and wandering minds.
There is so much we, and I will never understand.

Even so, I will never stop searching and seeking out everything that I want.

Stay safe.

_jakoby

Somewhere.

And someday, things will be different.

That day, is everyday.
Quoting myself, "Every moment, a chance to try again.
In every breath, an opportunity."

I don't know if I've ever written truer words.
Just as, yes. More so? Doubtful.

It's time to make larger steps. More visible, more worthwhile and just... Don't know how to say it without making everything seem worthless.
Because it hasn't been and will never be.
I'm so vague anymore.
It has it's way of keeping me comfortable.
Not for keeping others out, but in keeping my mind calm. It runs and wanders so quickly.
Drives me crazy trying to express it all.
In due time.

Stay safe.

_jakoby





_jakoby

Blank.

Restless.
Bored.
Lost.

Searching.

Stay safe.

_jakoby

Missing In Action.

Lost all my friends in one stupid night.
I'm still not exactly sure what happened.
But, I miss 'em all.
Evan's staying strong though.

God bless that dude.

It's such an empty, shallow feeling still.
It's like breaking up with your other, 3 times over.

'cause that's exactly what happened.

I'd like this all to blow over.

'cause I love the pack and this fucking bites.

But who knows...

According to them, I'm the worst.
And, maybe I am... For some reasons.
But what they're saying I did...
Is just so impossible untrue.
Time will tell.

On the bright side, I got some really GOOD news and just about the best invitation ever that same day.
So, hopefully and with all my wishing, this doesn't affect that, because we're all such a close group.
And even the small circles will affect the larger ones.
I'm being so vague.
But, it's in every one's best interest that I be so.
To everyone, I am insanely sorry.
And though you probably won't read this:
I hope you'll know.

And that this is killing me.
I feel sick to my stomach and I don't eat.
And though I don't believe in faults, just actions... These were all mine.
This is no pity party, I just wish I could show my sorrow and make something right.
I love you guys.

I know everything happens for a reason, I'm just struggling to find one here.


Stay safe.

_jakoby

You...

Have this draw and it has me torn up inside and questioning.
I know everything is where it should be, but is it at all possible, is it ever possible that something is missed?
Jumped over or skipped?
Something defining, left undone.

Nothing in this Universe is perfect, does that include you, Universe?
Maybe I'm just wanting what I do not have and I'm looking for any way to justify getting it.

Justify or just defy?
The choice is always yours.
I know what I wanted and what I still want.

Stay safe.

_jakoby

3 Nights Together...

And no one ever saw it coming.
n_n

Stay safe.

_jakoby

I write at 6:30.

After amazing nights you could never plan, and things that couldn't be better.

-I don't want to see what I can't forget unless it's that bright, bright glow like the white, white snow after we watched the stars explode. Blood rushing in our head and toes. So mysterious, and magical, wake up delirious. Not practical.-

Pretty AVA. Dig the melody I have in mind. Gonna be cool finished.

Stay safe.

_jakoby


_jakoby

I love...

To write.
To express.
To Feel.
To create.
To Love.
To lose.(myself)
To drown.(in someone else)
To breath.(someone in)
To be.
To disappear.
To float.
To fly.
To listen.
To speak.

To stop.
To stare.
To go.
To fall.(in)

To break.(through walls)
To find.
To fear.(your next move)
ToLoveToLoveToLove.

Stay safe.

_jakoby



Can we speed up the process please and show me who I need?

By pure...

Lack of interest and number of people here, I always feel like I'm writing to no one or one particular person.
It's a weird empty feeling.
Wish more people wrote.
Anything.

Just write, expression.
They say "Sing like no one's listening", but that really feels so empty.
I have a lot to say and sometimes you just really want people to hear it, or at have the opportunity or... At least know that you're even saying something at all.

Recently, I've been hanging out with a new group of people and... Actually doing something, even if it's nothing at all. It's still something and the best nothing I've ever been a part of.
It's so awesome to just walk into a new group of people and be so immediately accepted.
I mean... I guess it sort of started last Summer, but it seems new now.
Or at least the group has grown for me and my circles have definitely changed.
It's wonderful to have a group of people so comfortable with everyone and everyone gets along.
Sounds so cheesy and cliche, but it's really the simplest, best thing.

When you can just bum over to someone's apartment at 3am, realize there's nothing to do, toss around a few stupid jokes, laugh at the Cosmo's lyin' around and just be comfortable enough to have those around you fall asleep and know you could do the same.
It's simple and it's happiness.
It's new and refreshing and I get lost in the simplest of things, but I wont' even begin to complain.

Stay safe.

_jakoby

P.S. That came out nothing close to what I intended it to be when I started, but oh well.

I'm content with it.

It's true.

I'm lost, but I'm still looking.
I'm scared, but I'm still happy.
I don't know, But I'm finding
Out in every way there's something beautiful.
In every day, in every step you take.
In every breath that you make and steal from me.
It won't be long 'til I open eyes and let them, let me see.

Stay moving, because I know I am.

Stay safe.

_jakoby

I just...

Don't have the energy.
And I can't find the reasoning... To say all that I want to say.
I put it out, because I want to reach people.

Because I'd love for them to listen and understand.
I've had some of the deepest, most meaning conversations in the last week.
And... I just wish, so badly. That all of you, that everyone could be a part of all of this.

Of everything we say and everything we think.

It's definitely going to be a Movement.

It's definitely going to change things.

If you want it.

If you allow it.
It's all up to you.

I just want the option there for you.

To hold.

To have.

To understand.

To be able to see in some small way.
Or in the biggest way.

None of this makes sense to anyone but us... But it makes me feel better right now.

A little less pressure, a little less stress.
I don't mean to talk things up so much.

But, they really are there.
They really are on the verge.
I just don't know exactly how to convey it, and push it that last little bit.

We're so close.

And SO far away.
But EVERYTHING is exactly where it should be.
I have a lot of trouble handling that, even though I know it's true.

But, I am still a product of my generation and we want it all and we want it all now.
It will be had.
I just have to keep believing that myself and pushing through everything.
Anything and everything I'll ever want will happen.

This, I know.
This I truly believe.

Stay safe.

_jakoby

In every breath, an opportunity.

Just got really inspired.
Dunno' from what.

But I love when that wave hits.
It's a feeling unlike anything else.

Keeps me going.

"Every moment, a chance to try again.
In every breath, an opportunity."

Perhaps the best line I've ever written.
It's time to get back to my arts seriously.
With that fire and that passion.

Stay Safe.

_jakoby

I have the urge for...

A really long post. Delving into my thoughts, feelings and emotions.
Express all these things inside.
I have the urge, but not the energy.
Perhaps I'll do it later tonight.
For now, I'll use this.
I came across this quote, which is what actually inspired all this thinking.
It's weird, 'cause I was already in this mood... I had an idea of what I wanted to write about, what my mood and muse have been lately and then... This fell into my lap.
It's crazy how things happen.
Exactly how they need to.

Exactly where and when they need to be, so that it all fits.
Even when you don't think it fits.
It's fitting.

It's there.
It's placed.
For however long you allow it to remain, it is.
Anyway, here's the quote.
[lie. let me talk some more first]
It just describes... That urge.
That I have to be doing something.

Creating.
Making.

Or I just feel... Empty.

It's really hard to explain the feeling, but this quote really stoked me out.
And it's funny and fitting that all this should come together as I realized that every semi-serious to serious girlfriend I've ever had, has been an artist with a very creative mind. And not just a poser. Legitimately talented.
The connection I always find.
Now the quote:

"Any artistic person is essentially creating from an emotional extension of themselves. Regardless of the content, it always comes from a feeling, which propels us to have that... NEED to create."

It is such a need.

_jakoby

Stay Safe.

The Life Beyond Mediocrity

[Daily Booth]
You should do it.
All the cool kids are.

The hip new social network.

Well, it's not THAT new.
But, I don't think as many people are doing as it should be!
It's a totally cool idea.

Document you, or your life, one day, one photo at a time.
I wish I'd kept up with mine since January like I meant to.
Oh well!

Anyway.

Here's me today:

And here's the link to my Daily Booth.

http://dailybooth.com/JakobySKS
Go ahead and sign up.
Follow me and I'll follow you.
:}

Anything else new...
Hmm... I think I start on the line this week at work.
But, I don't think I'll be sticking around much longer anyway.
Probably gonna put my two weeks in, Mid-May.
My parents reminded me that I have full-time available to me in their business.

It's so much more freedom.
SO much more than most kids my age get, so I'm gonna hop on that.
I'd be stupid not to.
To waste my days trapped inside the restaurant.
Bummmmer.
And, the only reason I even started working there was to get my bike and feel like I actually earned it.
Working on my own and not having the work handed to me from my parents.
A little lesson in growing up.
And come that tail end of May, first of June...
I'll have my bike and my goal reached.
Not to mention a whole new group of friends I never would have met had I not started there.
Experiences I would have missed.
BLINK. I would have missed Blink 182.
That... At this point, is unimaginable.
Many, many times, laughs and experiences are at this point, unimaginable.

But, they don't have to be, because they happened.
And, I guess I have someone and something to thank for that.
But, I'm not quite sure what.
So, as always: Thank you, Universe.

I talk of growing up, way to soon.
Like I'm ready.
Because I am ready.
For the next chapter and the next part of my life.
"It builds Character." They say.
And with just under a year of character building under my belt at that place, I feel like I've pulled all I can from it, and I'm thankful for it.
But, I won't get trapped there for the next 8 years of my life, like so many there have.
Get drawn in and get comfortable. Content.
I won't wake up one day, realize I'm 26 and be at the same mediocre place I was when I was 17.
I won't be content with mediocrity.
School... College, in it's academic, institutionalized form may not be for me.

But that won't mean I'll become content with life in it's present form.
That's not to say that I'm not happy.
Because I am.
So happy.
SO much happier than I've felt in a long while.
I finally feel like things are right where they should be.
Nothing is a touch out of key or a step out of line.
I won't though, become stagnant and allow things to become that way.
In all it's cliche, I will be a student of life.
Learning, growing, loving, being.
I am, that student.
Will continue to pursue, to do.

I'm just ready for that next step.

Next chapter in my book.
I'm ready to surround myself with people of the same.

That maturity.

I'm not calling myself wise, but to be surrounded by those who share, for the lack of a better, wisdom.

To see that the life laid out in front of them is not set in stone.
Nor will it ever be.

But like a rolling ocean, it comes in fluid, malleable.
Sometimes it'll crash in hard, in waves.
And then it'll roll in softly, the surf splashing and bubbling.
Calming.
Every day changing, every day bring something new.

Something for you to seize.
For you to live.

Stay safe.

_jakoby

Music For Ya'.

Love this dude.
Love this song.

Love this video.

The Drops of Rain, They Fall All Over...

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One small thing!

This video.
It gave me goosebumps.
I dunno why.
This was kind of my album there for a little while!
Lotsa' memories and meaning in these jams!

Stay safe.

_jakoby

The Morning After.

And I'm glad I didn't.
Things almost got unreal.

And I felt it, so I didn't post it.
And this morning, I feel better for it.
I've found that to be the best medicine and cure for just about everything.

Emotional to physical.
Just sleep on it.
Let your head clear and see how you feel at the dawn of a new day.
You'll be amazed at the clarity.
Oh, and when I say "dawn", I literally mean dawn. For me at least.
Was up dark and early at a heavenly hour of 6am.
Not quite sure why I was so awake.
But, I definitely was.
Made some oatmeal. Tasted like shit.

Threw it away.
Handled some business/banking type shiz.
Watched Pirates of the Caribbean.
And here I am now.

Haha, a typo made me think of a joke!

Since Johnny Depp is the only original cast member signed on for number 4, do you think they'll just call it Pirate of the Caribbean?
#lamejoke
Since the invention of and my discovery of Twitter, I've began to use their processes in every day text/speech/blog.
As in... Hashtags, and @'s.
Sometimes the world would be more clear if everything were as blunt and to the point as 140 demands that you be.
Currently listening to this band, A Bird A Sparrow.
I italicized "band", 'cause I think it's only one dude, but then he also has a solo project under just his name, so I'm not really sure... Confuses me a little.
But, at any rate it's pretty good stuff! Give it the ol' look up on Myspace, which I feel is only good for music these days.
And 14 year old whores.
Which of course, I my two favorite subjects.
I kid.
I only like one of those things.
Ugh, direction change.
My stomach is a wreck! And has been for a week now.
I'm never drinking again.
Until the next time.
Haha, but yiiiiikes.
I don't know what the deal is.

I'd understand the next day rumbles, but a week? For two nights?
I'm not getting a deal here.
Speaking of those nights...
I once held a stripper's hair back as she railed lines off the beer-pong table.
#LOVE

Haha.
Nooo... She's not professionally a stripper, I just like to call her that instead.

It's a compliment.

Welp, the day is young.

And I'm not quite sure what to do today.
Second day off in a row.
Luuuccckky.
A positively gray day and I do enjoy that. Thoroughly.

Got my blinds open and all I can see from my view is the gray sky.

NO complaints.
So, I think I'm gonna grab some chai, sit back down at this computer and work on Big Bang Theory for the next couple hours.
It's coming along and sounding exactly as I want it.
This Rebirth is coming along just nicely.
Oh, and thank you for my chai.

This can is still going strong.

Think I'm gonna aim to start, starting all my days around 6.
SO much more time.

Oh, and... I start a lot of sentences with "but" and "and", isn't that a big English no-no?
Oh well, they seem to be the best sentence starters.
So, eff off English majors.

Stay safe.

_jakoby

Let's Get Real.

I think now is a better time than
ever to keep my blog updated, keep my journal. I want the blog as raw and as real as the thoughts in my head, as real as a personal journal would be. For everyone to see, if they wish. Nothing filtered, nothing censored. Is this smart? Is this safe? What do I have to to hide?
Then though... I want the rawness of handwritten pages, the expression of the penstroke. The ability to doodle and draw everything in me.
I think I'll do both. What's the harm in doing both? I'm bound to get more out, more love, more distaste, more experiences.
Then I'll quote and scan any words and pictures that I think are of note, but still not editing from this here blog.
It'll get real and it'll get raw.
Your name may come up, but you don't have to read it.
I just want to share everything with everyone.
That was a big theme, if not the only theme of last night, that's what everything boils down to.
Unity. Togetherness. Sharing.
Just loving.
Listen to AVA's Secret Crowds. It's a lot like that.
I could keep writing, but not right now.
Lots to ponder.
My mind never stops moving.
Leads to so many late nights.

Stay safe.

_jakoby

Excitement!

I thought this deserved more than just a Twitter update!

Just ordered this bad boy!

For which to use on either...

Or this one...

Those are the choices I've given myself!
It's so close I can taste it!
And smell the exhaust =D

I'm like a little kid.
So giddy!
May have put the carriage before the horse a little bit...
BUT, it was seriously the greatest deal ever.
I could not pass it up.
An almost $800 helmet for less than half.
I'd have retarded to have missed it!
So excited.
Never been so pumped for Spring/Summer.
Usually I'm so sad for Winter to go, but this year, I've been on the edge of my seat. I'm loving everything about this!
All the feelings, the warmth, the fun, the sun, the friends.
I feel like I'm living for once.
I messed up last Summer. The one that was supposed to be huge, epic after high school hoo-rah.
But... Like my newest favorite album that was just released today... I'm getting my "Do Overs and Second Chances". I'm living and loving every minute of it.
I suggest you do the same.
And not just one moment or season, or part of life.
But, each and every.

Take hold and do everything you want!
Don't let anything hold you back!
I have such a great view on things.
"There's no where to go, but up from here."
And from up here... I can see everything.

Stay Safe.

_jakoby

Will you ever...

Cease to amaze me?
No.
You will not.
As a collective group.
Two groups.
Three groups.
My biggest inspirations.
Starting with my current listen.
The stream of Circa Survive's newest album(up now on their Myspace).
[it's a link]
|BLUE SKY NOISE|

Good lord.

Such raw, unbridled emotion in such a smooth, put together package.
It's a lot more reigned in than their last albums, but it's no less emotive.
It's a concentrated mass of feeling, power and... I can't stop saying it, emotion.

Anthony Green has such a control over his voice.
It's a feeling of... Recklessness, but it's completely owned and controlled.
Like if you were to take a seat with a race car driver, that speed and power would appear uncontrolled to you, but to the driver, he's in complete control and knows just what he's doing.
Just raw emotion. It's all there, just listen.
Not to mention that artwork... Wow.
I'm enthralled by all forms of art, so I really get into every aspect of an album, get lost in that artist's universe.
They all create their own worlds and it's so amazing to wrapped in their myth.
That said...
No one, in my eyes(and ears), creates that world, the vision, the sound, the feeling better than my two biggest inspirations for all that I do.

30 Seconds To Mars and Angels & Airwaves.

Those bands, my heroes, have truly, complete universes.
I don't know if that's how they have envisioned them.
But that's clearly how I see them.
I don't think I can even begin to touch on the vastness and creativeness that they have created.

It's just a feeling and emotional state they place you in.
You just have to get lost in it.
Find the Universe for yourself.

Because, it can't be shown. I've tried on many occasions to describe the feeling and what I see, what I want to be done... But, it can only be said to extent, then it's for they to see. To feel.
I've gone through many a band member, searching. Looking for that musical, visionary, soul connection.
It's a really high place that I have envisioned.
Such major movements, such stunning pieces, bright lights, big stages, big sounds, Universal feelings, atmospheric touchings.
The best explanation is simply, a Universe.

That's what I have envisioned for SKS.
And I will not stop for anything short of everything I see.
A lifetime it will take and my lifetime I will give.

That's all I know, that's all I want.
To give myself to something so wholly and fully.
Pure dedication of this creation.

And it's not to say, please don't let it be assumed that I'm so wrapped up and in love with myself to allow for anything or anyone else, 'cause that definitely not it.
I won't be so conceited and narcissistic.
Though, I have been compared as such.
I won't claim to be a visionary, but I have a vision.
To share.
I want the world to know what goes on inside my head.
I want to showcase it, for whoever wishes to listen, to see, to dive into.
It won't be force fed, but it will be there.
An outlet. A Universe to be lost in. To enjoy yourself in.
Even trying to describe it now, it's difficult, I can't find the words to show what I mean and say what I feel and see.

More than music. More than sound.
An explosion of color, light, sound, energy, sweat and love.
An orgasm.
Ha.
But, how any Universe, in my belief, is created.
In one, epic, BIG BANG.
And then built from there.
Rome wasn't built in a day, and neither will a Universe be.
My Universe be.
Ours.
Grown from the core out.
That's the track I'm working on now.
The opener.
I'm doing this in order.

As a movement, the movement I see.
From the beginning to the ending.

Make The Universe.
Which was once "Take The Universe".
But before something can be had, it must first be created.
And as I see it now, what I want is not yet there, or here, and the only way to show, is to do.
So, I'm scrapping nearly everything SUNDAYkillSUNDAY thus far and starting anew.

Rebirth.
One of three ideals that I believe in, one of three that this SKS Universe will grow from.

Love.
Hope.
Rebirth.

Starting with the first track to Make The Universe.
"Big Bang Theory".
Tentatively titled.
A movement of sound and feeling into the growth, of a molecule, the birth of a star and the explosion of a Universe.

I sound so into myself...
But I'm not.
I just know what I want and I'm taking it.
I'm not being stopped.
And if conviction is wrong... If love, dedication and a vision are to be mocked...
Condemn me.
Mock me.

I know who I am as human.
I know what I will do.
I know I won't stop.
Do you?

Do you have a hold, a grip, an idea?

If we as humans lose vision, lose faith, lose dedication to ourselves and the world around us.

What are we doing?
Why are we here?
Make a move.
Make your move.
Let the world move at a thousand miles around you, but move with it.
Flow.

Sway.

Stay safe.

Stay dedicated.
Stay in love.

Stay yourself.
Stay human.

_jakoby

Some Things Just Float Away.

I don't know what I was thinking, but I was thinking wrong.
Still just need to let things go.
I'm great at being optimistic, but terrible at night in my late hour.
I need people. Need to be surrounded. Just need to be distracted.
I'm stressing myself out and I REALLY don't need to be. Especially over something so stupid as money, not to be a braggart, in no way at all, but I have it. So, all the less reason to stress over it.
I really don't know the reason.
I will have it and will continue to have it.
I guess it's just the thought of not having it.
Which again, is unnecessary. In the end, and beginning: It's just money. Pointless, monetary value placed on life.
You decide what your life is worth. What you do with it.
That's not all my stress...
But I really don't know what is.
Just that biting feeling in the back of your head.
The pit of your stomach. That uneasiness...
About to do some music and that will release it for sure.
As will this weekend. Friday, Saturday, Sunday, empty house and a whole day off tomorrow/today.
Gonna go see a man about some tattoos. I'm itching for more ink SO bad, I can hardly stand it, once you taste of ink, you really want more. Addiction? It's really something that gets to you. Your mind and body beg for more, that pure visual control over... You. I dunno how to explain, but it's excellent.
Then I still gotta get my taxes filed, then... then, The day is mine.
Feels so refreshing.
Already my stress is lifting.
A lot of SKS and a lot of playing.
My work on a piano ballad is really coming along.
Doing lyrics and vocals now, a chorus is all I have, but it sounds so good against this piece. To me, anyway.


Stay safe.
Have fun.
Hope.
Love.
Rebirth.


_jakoby

DECISIONS! Arg...

So yesterday... And the the day before, and a little while before
that, I thought I had it buttoned down on the bike that I wanted,
Kawasaki's 2008 ZX-6R. Cheaper, rad looks, better insurance deal and a
beast of a 599cc engine. The one I posted yesterday.
But... Before that decision was made, I was decided on Kawasaki's
literbike monster, the 2008 ZX-10R. This badass here:

A super aggressive beast with sharp lines and a roaring 998cc engine. Power out my ears.
I don't know what my hang up on choosing is! But it's nagging in the back (and front) and stressing me out a little(a lot)... Shih-fuck!
Urrgggguuuhhhh!

Granted insurance will be a bit more... Possibly a lot. Initial cost is more too... And I'll want to change the stock pipe immediately... So, overall cost is more in everyway, but still
my head justifies it... Can't decide :((
Stresss.
At least it's about something so ridiculous :)
I love life.

Stay safe!

_jakoby

Holy Shiz.

No update in quite some time.
What have I been up to?
A whole lot of nothings that have transformed into definite somethings.
Things at work are going well and for once, I actually don't loathe going in with all that's in me. New jobs and the same job and more money definite contributors. I don't love money, but I do love the freedom that it brings and allows for.
That said... I'm finally back on my saving track, well, have been since about February.
Back to saving for the reason I even got the job in the first place...
This bad boy:

And... All things continuing as they are, or increasingly better and they're seeming to be, I should be making the purchase right around the end of May.
A little bummed to miss out on Spring riding, oh well, my fault for getting off track!
All I'll need after that is the pretty little lady envisioned in my head...
A vision I've had for a while, but I'll do without for a while...
Also can't wait for rides with my brother and dad!
Just gotta convince my mum to let my dad purchase a bike again! She doesn't think it's fair... Psh. She just got a new vehicle.
And yeah, my dad's a bad ass. He used to race, ya know? So there!
My drumming, motorcycle racing, hockey playing father!

My dad could SO beat up your dad.

I'm even missing out on a Go Radio, A Day To Remember, 30 Seconds to Mars, Circa Survive, and Coheed & Cambria series of concerts to make this bike happen! Granted, I've already seen all but two of those bands, it's still pretty huge!
I will be making it the AVA concert that tail end of May. There's NO way I'm gonna miss their headlining show, I cannot!

Other shiz going on... Pretty positive of Spring vacay going down with Evan as a celebration of his late, but successful finishing of high school! I'm way proud of that dude, even more so than I would have been had he finished normally, it's gotta be super tough to go back after (mostly) everyone else has finished. Congrats to you, Buddy! =D
We were planning Cali-Forn-Eye-Eh, and some Hunnington Beach action, but now that may be changing, doesn't really matter to me! It's his choice and any way we do it, is gonna be effing epic.

On other epic notes... Gonna be flying into Denver mid-June for another show! SUPER pumped. Gonna be so bad ass.
I always feel so cool when traveling, gives me that touring, band feeling! So, flying ought to add to that!

I'm so pumped on life.
Things are so good, and even when they're not, I have the greatest ability to see the glass as half full.
And I'm very thankful for that.
Don't know where it comes from, but I have it.
Once I learned to stop focusing on love... Things just got better.
My head is lot more clear, and sure, I'd love for the romance... But I don't need, I'm doing A-okay without it.
And... Playing the game is fun too ;}

OH! Huge breakthrough in my music world, as far as personal battles go, which as an artist, I have many.
This win comes from always constant need to pump out music, no matter the quality, just make it, because that's what I do, right?
Wrong. Because after that fact, I always listen to what I have done and find myself disappointed by my creations.
Well, that is the Jakoby of old! And the new, has found a patience in my creations, that I have nothing to prove, I don't have to pump out music just to prove to others that I'm actually doing something.
I've learned and found the time(like I was rushed on it anyway...) to grow my music, progress and watch them evolve into masterpieces, not simply(seriously, it's not simple) write, record and produce songs all in one sitting, which I have been prone to do.

True, I still do that now, but I realized that this is the demoing process and after those initial notes are written... Put that song down and write another. Come back to the song when it's fresh to your ear, when your mind can actually hear again and put music together in your head, hear parts that aren't yet there and breed those ideas.
I'm very proud of this new understanding I have.

I've also been writing songs differently, just changing my process to keep thoughts and ideas constantly flowing, rather than thinking, "Oh, I need this part here, I must figure it out now."

Music first, then lyrics has always been my procedure for songs that are actually words, other things written have always just ended up as prose, poetry.

Now learning to... Do things in whatever order I wish!

That I have the ability to mold music to my words, which I have found... Creates a much more beautiful piece, in my ear at least.
Speaking of lyrics...
Here's some lines of something I was writing the other day.
And it's probably the most stoked I've ever been with the initial beginnings of song.
Sure, the words may transform a little, but still!
So happy with them.

I've told a lot of lies and that's how I got me by.
I swore on love, without the loss and never bat an eye.
Promised on trust, tasted the lust and never backed down.

She came with a sparkle in her eye and action on her mind.
Packaged with a soundtrack, songs by lovers, 20/20 if she ever looked back.
But her heart was set and our hearts met.

Lights out. Covers, deep. Breaths, shallow. Curves, steep.

Looking for the words to knock you from your feet.
Backs planted to sheets.
Ready to grow like Spring trees.
Ready. To. Go.

Gonna be a tasty, dirty, heavy, sexxxy jam.
I've got the music and sounds all swimming in my head.
Gonna turn out so sweet.
Sugar from flowers.
n_n

Pretty long update, it's been a while!
So sorry, and thank you if you read it all :]
I love you.

Stay safe!

_jakoby

Update of Nottthiiiiiiiin'.

Lots goin' on, but I don't feel like writing it all out!

Sorreh!

I guess your loss... But probably not too much. Ha.

This song has been sweet to my ears, so I thought I'd share.
It's Have Mercy by Select Start definitely a band worth checking out. Their EP <3 is worth purchasing. It's another of those that it's all I listened to for a solid 2 weeks.

Awkward silence, I graze your hand.
My heart is racing to comprehend.
Oh, I never fell for a girl I just met, but she's carefully taken my heart from my chest.

I don't believe in anything.
I don't believe in anything.

I'm not trying to make you blush.
It's been a week and I need your touch.
Something's telling me this could work out.
I'm keeping the baggage from holding us down.

I don't believe in anything.

Even though you haven't said, the words you say could kill this man.
This isn't much I'm offering, just know you mean the world to me.

Your lips are winning me over.
Your secrets rest on my shoulders.
I'll take you in.
I'll take you anywhere you want.

I've got the words if you've got desire.
You've got the moves to set me on fire.
It's much more than love.
It's one more than lust.
The sands of time, spilling out.
Let's make it count.
Don't talk.

Even though you haven't said, the words you say could kill this man.
This isn't much I'm offering, just know you mean the world to me.

Your lips are winning me over.
Your secrets rest on my shoulders.
I'll take you in.
I'll take you anywhere you want.

This moment's all I wanted.
I think we're on to something.
Nothing is holding us back.
You know and I know this heartbeat could crumble the world.

You'll never be over it.
Never been more proud of it.

It's all that I wanted.
It's all that wanted.

Even though you haven't said, the words you say could kill this man.
This isn't much I'm offering, just know you mean the world to me.

Your lips are winning me over.
Your secrets rest on my shoulders.
I'll take you in.
I'll take you anywhere you want.


Stay safe!

And perhaps next entry will actually be an update! Or at least something halfway interesting!
We'll shall see!
Oh! If you haven't, would please head over to http://www.myspace.com/sundaykillsunday and check out my tunes...? Leave some love, tell your friends, be a bad A, and expect more new stuff in the near future!

Thanks!

_jakoby

I Wouldn't Change A Thing.

Went to a concert the other night, for one band in particular, not thinking I'd come out a huge fan of the other bands, well, I did.
Goodnight Sunrise blew me away with their professionalism and just how good they were up on stage, knowing what they were doing, confident in their performance. The last song that they played really stuck with me and though I didn't know every word that was sang, one line stuck with me, that I was still singing on the ride home, the melody was stuck in my head, infectious, you might say. The line, just so happened to be the title of the song and this blog, go figure.
I was also really impressed with the frontman/singer/guitarist Dan Murphy. First of all by his stage presence, he was happy and thankful for the 20+ of us and put on a show just the same as he would have have for a packed house. He very much reminded me of Travis Clark and Martin Johnson in his performance and presence.
After the show my buddy Evan purchased their 7 song EP and played it the entire ride home, I believe we made it through 3 times.

On that drive I went through the CD package and artwork reading all the band thank you's and credits and noticed that Mr. Dan Murphy had done everything mostly himself, the recordings, the art, the love and the passion that went into this album. I'm not exactly sure what it gave me, but it was a sense of something... Inspiration, I think is the best explanation and a new definition of "success" to add to my own.
This world and todays music industry is such a DIY business and I've known that from the start, but it's really inspiring and refreshing to see it firsthand, or secondhand rather.
Though, I know that most of you have not listened to or even heard of Goodnight Sunrise, they're still doing their thing and have been for awhile, making a living and doing what they love, building a small fan base every where they travel, and they travel constantly, pursuing and never giving up. Which is so the life I want, I'm not worried about the instant global success. I'm excited for the work, the sweat and the tears. It's a struggle I want. It's experience I need.
It pays off.
That night, there was only one girl in that audience that had the album and new of them before they took the stage, but leaving that night, I know they left with another 3 fans.
Which doesn't seem much... But everything counts in the end. And I know from an artist's point of view that if you're able to touch even one person, you've done exactly what you set out to do.
So, I just wanted to give them a thank you and a shout out, for giving me a new outlook on success and another reason to stay positive, showing me what's possible with love and dedication.
I would highly recommend you pick up the EP "Stop, Drop & Roll" by Goodnight Sunrise on iTunes for a sweet $4.99. 7 songs at less than a dollar a piece, how con you complain?
It's well worth it.
And here are the words to that song that's been stuck with me for days:

I'll catch a little sleep & close my eyes

As often as it seems,

I've got these long drives & you've got long goodbyes

& we're catching up about the past few weeks

As long as they may seem

I've had these long nights that I can't call to mind

I wouldn't change a thing since day one

'cause back then too, I felt emotion

If you keep me around, I'll keep myself away from trouble

Just like I've done 'till now, just like I've done 'till now

I think I may have found a way to keep myself in line

I see a person almost everyday who reminds me of her face

With all these long days, I can't remember names

But you, you could call I'm clever 'cause I learned by heart

And assembled all the parts I touch you fast-paced, but I still look the same

I wouldn't change a thing since day one 'cause back then too, I felt emotion

If you keep me around, I'll keep myself away from trouble

Just like I've done 'till now, just like I've done 'till now

I think I may have found a way to keep myself in line

And if I'm kept in line,

I'll take you out sometime

I'll show you where I go

Between these long goodbyes

You're not ready (you're not ready)

I won't lock my knees (I won't lock my knees)

I'll stay steady 'cause once I see you,

I'll be falling at your feet

I wouldn't change a thing, I wouldn't change a thing,

I wouldn't change a thing, & keep myself away from trouble

I wouldn't change a thing since day one

'cause back then too, I felt emotion

If you keep me around, I'll keep myself away from trouble

Just like I've done 'till now I wouldn't change a thing,

I wouldn't change a thing, I wouldn't change a thing,

& keep myself away from trouble just like I've done 'till now