Holy Shiz.

No update in quite some time.
What have I been up to?
A whole lot of nothings that have transformed into definite somethings.
Things at work are going well and for once, I actually don't loathe going in with all that's in me. New jobs and the same job and more money definite contributors. I don't love money, but I do love the freedom that it brings and allows for.
That said... I'm finally back on my saving track, well, have been since about February.
Back to saving for the reason I even got the job in the first place...
This bad boy:

And... All things continuing as they are, or increasingly better and they're seeming to be, I should be making the purchase right around the end of May.
A little bummed to miss out on Spring riding, oh well, my fault for getting off track!
All I'll need after that is the pretty little lady envisioned in my head...
A vision I've had for a while, but I'll do without for a while...
Also can't wait for rides with my brother and dad!
Just gotta convince my mum to let my dad purchase a bike again! She doesn't think it's fair... Psh. She just got a new vehicle.
And yeah, my dad's a bad ass. He used to race, ya know? So there!
My drumming, motorcycle racing, hockey playing father!

My dad could SO beat up your dad.

I'm even missing out on a Go Radio, A Day To Remember, 30 Seconds to Mars, Circa Survive, and Coheed & Cambria series of concerts to make this bike happen! Granted, I've already seen all but two of those bands, it's still pretty huge!
I will be making it the AVA concert that tail end of May. There's NO way I'm gonna miss their headlining show, I cannot!

Other shiz going on... Pretty positive of Spring vacay going down with Evan as a celebration of his late, but successful finishing of high school! I'm way proud of that dude, even more so than I would have been had he finished normally, it's gotta be super tough to go back after (mostly) everyone else has finished. Congrats to you, Buddy! =D
We were planning Cali-Forn-Eye-Eh, and some Hunnington Beach action, but now that may be changing, doesn't really matter to me! It's his choice and any way we do it, is gonna be effing epic.

On other epic notes... Gonna be flying into Denver mid-June for another show! SUPER pumped. Gonna be so bad ass.
I always feel so cool when traveling, gives me that touring, band feeling! So, flying ought to add to that!

I'm so pumped on life.
Things are so good, and even when they're not, I have the greatest ability to see the glass as half full.
And I'm very thankful for that.
Don't know where it comes from, but I have it.
Once I learned to stop focusing on love... Things just got better.
My head is lot more clear, and sure, I'd love for the romance... But I don't need, I'm doing A-okay without it.
And... Playing the game is fun too ;}

OH! Huge breakthrough in my music world, as far as personal battles go, which as an artist, I have many.
This win comes from always constant need to pump out music, no matter the quality, just make it, because that's what I do, right?
Wrong. Because after that fact, I always listen to what I have done and find myself disappointed by my creations.
Well, that is the Jakoby of old! And the new, has found a patience in my creations, that I have nothing to prove, I don't have to pump out music just to prove to others that I'm actually doing something.
I've learned and found the time(like I was rushed on it anyway...) to grow my music, progress and watch them evolve into masterpieces, not simply(seriously, it's not simple) write, record and produce songs all in one sitting, which I have been prone to do.

True, I still do that now, but I realized that this is the demoing process and after those initial notes are written... Put that song down and write another. Come back to the song when it's fresh to your ear, when your mind can actually hear again and put music together in your head, hear parts that aren't yet there and breed those ideas.
I'm very proud of this new understanding I have.

I've also been writing songs differently, just changing my process to keep thoughts and ideas constantly flowing, rather than thinking, "Oh, I need this part here, I must figure it out now."

Music first, then lyrics has always been my procedure for songs that are actually words, other things written have always just ended up as prose, poetry.

Now learning to... Do things in whatever order I wish!

That I have the ability to mold music to my words, which I have found... Creates a much more beautiful piece, in my ear at least.
Speaking of lyrics...
Here's some lines of something I was writing the other day.
And it's probably the most stoked I've ever been with the initial beginnings of song.
Sure, the words may transform a little, but still!
So happy with them.

I've told a lot of lies and that's how I got me by.
I swore on love, without the loss and never bat an eye.
Promised on trust, tasted the lust and never backed down.

She came with a sparkle in her eye and action on her mind.
Packaged with a soundtrack, songs by lovers, 20/20 if she ever looked back.
But her heart was set and our hearts met.

Lights out. Covers, deep. Breaths, shallow. Curves, steep.

Looking for the words to knock you from your feet.
Backs planted to sheets.
Ready to grow like Spring trees.
Ready. To. Go.

Gonna be a tasty, dirty, heavy, sexxxy jam.
I've got the music and sounds all swimming in my head.
Gonna turn out so sweet.
Sugar from flowers.
n_n

Pretty long update, it's been a while!
So sorry, and thank you if you read it all :]
I love you.

Stay safe!

_jakoby