You...

Have this draw and it has me torn up inside and questioning.
I know everything is where it should be, but is it at all possible, is it ever possible that something is missed?
Jumped over or skipped?
Something defining, left undone.

Nothing in this Universe is perfect, does that include you, Universe?
Maybe I'm just wanting what I do not have and I'm looking for any way to justify getting it.

Justify or just defy?
The choice is always yours.
I know what I wanted and what I still want.

Stay safe.

_jakoby

3 Nights Together...

And no one ever saw it coming.
n_n

Stay safe.

_jakoby

I write at 6:30.

After amazing nights you could never plan, and things that couldn't be better.

-I don't want to see what I can't forget unless it's that bright, bright glow like the white, white snow after we watched the stars explode. Blood rushing in our head and toes. So mysterious, and magical, wake up delirious. Not practical.-

Pretty AVA. Dig the melody I have in mind. Gonna be cool finished.

Stay safe.

_jakoby


_jakoby

I love...

To write.
To express.
To Feel.
To create.
To Love.
To lose.(myself)
To drown.(in someone else)
To breath.(someone in)
To be.
To disappear.
To float.
To fly.
To listen.
To speak.

To stop.
To stare.
To go.
To fall.(in)

To break.(through walls)
To find.
To fear.(your next move)
ToLoveToLoveToLove.

Stay safe.

_jakoby



Can we speed up the process please and show me who I need?

By pure...

Lack of interest and number of people here, I always feel like I'm writing to no one or one particular person.
It's a weird empty feeling.
Wish more people wrote.
Anything.

Just write, expression.
They say "Sing like no one's listening", but that really feels so empty.
I have a lot to say and sometimes you just really want people to hear it, or at have the opportunity or... At least know that you're even saying something at all.

Recently, I've been hanging out with a new group of people and... Actually doing something, even if it's nothing at all. It's still something and the best nothing I've ever been a part of.
It's so awesome to just walk into a new group of people and be so immediately accepted.
I mean... I guess it sort of started last Summer, but it seems new now.
Or at least the group has grown for me and my circles have definitely changed.
It's wonderful to have a group of people so comfortable with everyone and everyone gets along.
Sounds so cheesy and cliche, but it's really the simplest, best thing.

When you can just bum over to someone's apartment at 3am, realize there's nothing to do, toss around a few stupid jokes, laugh at the Cosmo's lyin' around and just be comfortable enough to have those around you fall asleep and know you could do the same.
It's simple and it's happiness.
It's new and refreshing and I get lost in the simplest of things, but I wont' even begin to complain.

Stay safe.

_jakoby

P.S. That came out nothing close to what I intended it to be when I started, but oh well.

I'm content with it.

It's true.

I'm lost, but I'm still looking.
I'm scared, but I'm still happy.
I don't know, But I'm finding
Out in every way there's something beautiful.
In every day, in every step you take.
In every breath that you make and steal from me.
It won't be long 'til I open eyes and let them, let me see.

Stay moving, because I know I am.

Stay safe.

_jakoby

I just...

Don't have the energy.
And I can't find the reasoning... To say all that I want to say.
I put it out, because I want to reach people.

Because I'd love for them to listen and understand.
I've had some of the deepest, most meaning conversations in the last week.
And... I just wish, so badly. That all of you, that everyone could be a part of all of this.

Of everything we say and everything we think.

It's definitely going to be a Movement.

It's definitely going to change things.

If you want it.

If you allow it.
It's all up to you.

I just want the option there for you.

To hold.

To have.

To understand.

To be able to see in some small way.
Or in the biggest way.

None of this makes sense to anyone but us... But it makes me feel better right now.

A little less pressure, a little less stress.
I don't mean to talk things up so much.

But, they really are there.
They really are on the verge.
I just don't know exactly how to convey it, and push it that last little bit.

We're so close.

And SO far away.
But EVERYTHING is exactly where it should be.
I have a lot of trouble handling that, even though I know it's true.

But, I am still a product of my generation and we want it all and we want it all now.
It will be had.
I just have to keep believing that myself and pushing through everything.
Anything and everything I'll ever want will happen.

This, I know.
This I truly believe.

Stay safe.

_jakoby