The Life Beyond Mediocrity

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Well, it's not THAT new.
But, I don't think as many people are doing as it should be!
It's a totally cool idea.

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I wish I'd kept up with mine since January like I meant to.
Oh well!

Anyway.

Here's me today:

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Anything else new...
Hmm... I think I start on the line this week at work.
But, I don't think I'll be sticking around much longer anyway.
Probably gonna put my two weeks in, Mid-May.
My parents reminded me that I have full-time available to me in their business.

It's so much more freedom.
SO much more than most kids my age get, so I'm gonna hop on that.
I'd be stupid not to.
To waste my days trapped inside the restaurant.
Bummmmer.
And, the only reason I even started working there was to get my bike and feel like I actually earned it.
Working on my own and not having the work handed to me from my parents.
A little lesson in growing up.
And come that tail end of May, first of June...
I'll have my bike and my goal reached.
Not to mention a whole new group of friends I never would have met had I not started there.
Experiences I would have missed.
BLINK. I would have missed Blink 182.
That... At this point, is unimaginable.
Many, many times, laughs and experiences are at this point, unimaginable.

But, they don't have to be, because they happened.
And, I guess I have someone and something to thank for that.
But, I'm not quite sure what.
So, as always: Thank you, Universe.

I talk of growing up, way to soon.
Like I'm ready.
Because I am ready.
For the next chapter and the next part of my life.
"It builds Character." They say.
And with just under a year of character building under my belt at that place, I feel like I've pulled all I can from it, and I'm thankful for it.
But, I won't get trapped there for the next 8 years of my life, like so many there have.
Get drawn in and get comfortable. Content.
I won't wake up one day, realize I'm 26 and be at the same mediocre place I was when I was 17.
I won't be content with mediocrity.
School... College, in it's academic, institutionalized form may not be for me.

But that won't mean I'll become content with life in it's present form.
That's not to say that I'm not happy.
Because I am.
So happy.
SO much happier than I've felt in a long while.
I finally feel like things are right where they should be.
Nothing is a touch out of key or a step out of line.
I won't though, become stagnant and allow things to become that way.
In all it's cliche, I will be a student of life.
Learning, growing, loving, being.
I am, that student.
Will continue to pursue, to do.

I'm just ready for that next step.

Next chapter in my book.
I'm ready to surround myself with people of the same.

That maturity.

I'm not calling myself wise, but to be surrounded by those who share, for the lack of a better, wisdom.

To see that the life laid out in front of them is not set in stone.
Nor will it ever be.

But like a rolling ocean, it comes in fluid, malleable.
Sometimes it'll crash in hard, in waves.
And then it'll roll in softly, the surf splashing and bubbling.
Calming.
Every day changing, every day bring something new.

Something for you to seize.
For you to live.

Stay safe.

_jakoby

Music For Ya'.

Love this dude.
Love this song.

Love this video.

The Drops of Rain, They Fall All Over...

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One small thing!

This video.
It gave me goosebumps.
I dunno why.
This was kind of my album there for a little while!
Lotsa' memories and meaning in these jams!

Stay safe.

_jakoby

The Morning After.

And I'm glad I didn't.
Things almost got unreal.

And I felt it, so I didn't post it.
And this morning, I feel better for it.
I've found that to be the best medicine and cure for just about everything.

Emotional to physical.
Just sleep on it.
Let your head clear and see how you feel at the dawn of a new day.
You'll be amazed at the clarity.
Oh, and when I say "dawn", I literally mean dawn. For me at least.
Was up dark and early at a heavenly hour of 6am.
Not quite sure why I was so awake.
But, I definitely was.
Made some oatmeal. Tasted like shit.

Threw it away.
Handled some business/banking type shiz.
Watched Pirates of the Caribbean.
And here I am now.

Haha, a typo made me think of a joke!

Since Johnny Depp is the only original cast member signed on for number 4, do you think they'll just call it Pirate of the Caribbean?
#lamejoke
Since the invention of and my discovery of Twitter, I've began to use their processes in every day text/speech/blog.
As in... Hashtags, and @'s.
Sometimes the world would be more clear if everything were as blunt and to the point as 140 demands that you be.
Currently listening to this band, A Bird A Sparrow.
I italicized "band", 'cause I think it's only one dude, but then he also has a solo project under just his name, so I'm not really sure... Confuses me a little.
But, at any rate it's pretty good stuff! Give it the ol' look up on Myspace, which I feel is only good for music these days.
And 14 year old whores.
Which of course, I my two favorite subjects.
I kid.
I only like one of those things.
Ugh, direction change.
My stomach is a wreck! And has been for a week now.
I'm never drinking again.
Until the next time.
Haha, but yiiiiikes.
I don't know what the deal is.

I'd understand the next day rumbles, but a week? For two nights?
I'm not getting a deal here.
Speaking of those nights...
I once held a stripper's hair back as she railed lines off the beer-pong table.
#LOVE

Haha.
Nooo... She's not professionally a stripper, I just like to call her that instead.

It's a compliment.

Welp, the day is young.

And I'm not quite sure what to do today.
Second day off in a row.
Luuuccckky.
A positively gray day and I do enjoy that. Thoroughly.

Got my blinds open and all I can see from my view is the gray sky.

NO complaints.
So, I think I'm gonna grab some chai, sit back down at this computer and work on Big Bang Theory for the next couple hours.
It's coming along and sounding exactly as I want it.
This Rebirth is coming along just nicely.
Oh, and thank you for my chai.

This can is still going strong.

Think I'm gonna aim to start, starting all my days around 6.
SO much more time.

Oh, and... I start a lot of sentences with "but" and "and", isn't that a big English no-no?
Oh well, they seem to be the best sentence starters.
So, eff off English majors.

Stay safe.

_jakoby

Let's Get Real.

I think now is a better time than
ever to keep my blog updated, keep my journal. I want the blog as raw and as real as the thoughts in my head, as real as a personal journal would be. For everyone to see, if they wish. Nothing filtered, nothing censored. Is this smart? Is this safe? What do I have to to hide?
Then though... I want the rawness of handwritten pages, the expression of the penstroke. The ability to doodle and draw everything in me.
I think I'll do both. What's the harm in doing both? I'm bound to get more out, more love, more distaste, more experiences.
Then I'll quote and scan any words and pictures that I think are of note, but still not editing from this here blog.
It'll get real and it'll get raw.
Your name may come up, but you don't have to read it.
I just want to share everything with everyone.
That was a big theme, if not the only theme of last night, that's what everything boils down to.
Unity. Togetherness. Sharing.
Just loving.
Listen to AVA's Secret Crowds. It's a lot like that.
I could keep writing, but not right now.
Lots to ponder.
My mind never stops moving.
Leads to so many late nights.

Stay safe.

_jakoby

Excitement!

I thought this deserved more than just a Twitter update!

Just ordered this bad boy!

For which to use on either...

Or this one...

Those are the choices I've given myself!
It's so close I can taste it!
And smell the exhaust =D

I'm like a little kid.
So giddy!
May have put the carriage before the horse a little bit...
BUT, it was seriously the greatest deal ever.
I could not pass it up.
An almost $800 helmet for less than half.
I'd have retarded to have missed it!
So excited.
Never been so pumped for Spring/Summer.
Usually I'm so sad for Winter to go, but this year, I've been on the edge of my seat. I'm loving everything about this!
All the feelings, the warmth, the fun, the sun, the friends.
I feel like I'm living for once.
I messed up last Summer. The one that was supposed to be huge, epic after high school hoo-rah.
But... Like my newest favorite album that was just released today... I'm getting my "Do Overs and Second Chances". I'm living and loving every minute of it.
I suggest you do the same.
And not just one moment or season, or part of life.
But, each and every.

Take hold and do everything you want!
Don't let anything hold you back!
I have such a great view on things.
"There's no where to go, but up from here."
And from up here... I can see everything.

Stay Safe.

_jakoby

Will you ever...

Cease to amaze me?
No.
You will not.
As a collective group.
Two groups.
Three groups.
My biggest inspirations.
Starting with my current listen.
The stream of Circa Survive's newest album(up now on their Myspace).
[it's a link]
|BLUE SKY NOISE|

Good lord.

Such raw, unbridled emotion in such a smooth, put together package.
It's a lot more reigned in than their last albums, but it's no less emotive.
It's a concentrated mass of feeling, power and... I can't stop saying it, emotion.

Anthony Green has such a control over his voice.
It's a feeling of... Recklessness, but it's completely owned and controlled.
Like if you were to take a seat with a race car driver, that speed and power would appear uncontrolled to you, but to the driver, he's in complete control and knows just what he's doing.
Just raw emotion. It's all there, just listen.
Not to mention that artwork... Wow.
I'm enthralled by all forms of art, so I really get into every aspect of an album, get lost in that artist's universe.
They all create their own worlds and it's so amazing to wrapped in their myth.
That said...
No one, in my eyes(and ears), creates that world, the vision, the sound, the feeling better than my two biggest inspirations for all that I do.

30 Seconds To Mars and Angels & Airwaves.

Those bands, my heroes, have truly, complete universes.
I don't know if that's how they have envisioned them.
But that's clearly how I see them.
I don't think I can even begin to touch on the vastness and creativeness that they have created.

It's just a feeling and emotional state they place you in.
You just have to get lost in it.
Find the Universe for yourself.

Because, it can't be shown. I've tried on many occasions to describe the feeling and what I see, what I want to be done... But, it can only be said to extent, then it's for they to see. To feel.
I've gone through many a band member, searching. Looking for that musical, visionary, soul connection.
It's a really high place that I have envisioned.
Such major movements, such stunning pieces, bright lights, big stages, big sounds, Universal feelings, atmospheric touchings.
The best explanation is simply, a Universe.

That's what I have envisioned for SKS.
And I will not stop for anything short of everything I see.
A lifetime it will take and my lifetime I will give.

That's all I know, that's all I want.
To give myself to something so wholly and fully.
Pure dedication of this creation.

And it's not to say, please don't let it be assumed that I'm so wrapped up and in love with myself to allow for anything or anyone else, 'cause that definitely not it.
I won't be so conceited and narcissistic.
Though, I have been compared as such.
I won't claim to be a visionary, but I have a vision.
To share.
I want the world to know what goes on inside my head.
I want to showcase it, for whoever wishes to listen, to see, to dive into.
It won't be force fed, but it will be there.
An outlet. A Universe to be lost in. To enjoy yourself in.
Even trying to describe it now, it's difficult, I can't find the words to show what I mean and say what I feel and see.

More than music. More than sound.
An explosion of color, light, sound, energy, sweat and love.
An orgasm.
Ha.
But, how any Universe, in my belief, is created.
In one, epic, BIG BANG.
And then built from there.
Rome wasn't built in a day, and neither will a Universe be.
My Universe be.
Ours.
Grown from the core out.
That's the track I'm working on now.
The opener.
I'm doing this in order.

As a movement, the movement I see.
From the beginning to the ending.

Make The Universe.
Which was once "Take The Universe".
But before something can be had, it must first be created.
And as I see it now, what I want is not yet there, or here, and the only way to show, is to do.
So, I'm scrapping nearly everything SUNDAYkillSUNDAY thus far and starting anew.

Rebirth.
One of three ideals that I believe in, one of three that this SKS Universe will grow from.

Love.
Hope.
Rebirth.

Starting with the first track to Make The Universe.
"Big Bang Theory".
Tentatively titled.
A movement of sound and feeling into the growth, of a molecule, the birth of a star and the explosion of a Universe.

I sound so into myself...
But I'm not.
I just know what I want and I'm taking it.
I'm not being stopped.
And if conviction is wrong... If love, dedication and a vision are to be mocked...
Condemn me.
Mock me.

I know who I am as human.
I know what I will do.
I know I won't stop.
Do you?

Do you have a hold, a grip, an idea?

If we as humans lose vision, lose faith, lose dedication to ourselves and the world around us.

What are we doing?
Why are we here?
Make a move.
Make your move.
Let the world move at a thousand miles around you, but move with it.
Flow.

Sway.

Stay safe.

Stay dedicated.
Stay in love.

Stay yourself.
Stay human.

_jakoby

Some Things Just Float Away.

I don't know what I was thinking, but I was thinking wrong.
Still just need to let things go.
I'm great at being optimistic, but terrible at night in my late hour.
I need people. Need to be surrounded. Just need to be distracted.
I'm stressing myself out and I REALLY don't need to be. Especially over something so stupid as money, not to be a braggart, in no way at all, but I have it. So, all the less reason to stress over it.
I really don't know the reason.
I will have it and will continue to have it.
I guess it's just the thought of not having it.
Which again, is unnecessary. In the end, and beginning: It's just money. Pointless, monetary value placed on life.
You decide what your life is worth. What you do with it.
That's not all my stress...
But I really don't know what is.
Just that biting feeling in the back of your head.
The pit of your stomach. That uneasiness...
About to do some music and that will release it for sure.
As will this weekend. Friday, Saturday, Sunday, empty house and a whole day off tomorrow/today.
Gonna go see a man about some tattoos. I'm itching for more ink SO bad, I can hardly stand it, once you taste of ink, you really want more. Addiction? It's really something that gets to you. Your mind and body beg for more, that pure visual control over... You. I dunno how to explain, but it's excellent.
Then I still gotta get my taxes filed, then... then, The day is mine.
Feels so refreshing.
Already my stress is lifting.
A lot of SKS and a lot of playing.
My work on a piano ballad is really coming along.
Doing lyrics and vocals now, a chorus is all I have, but it sounds so good against this piece. To me, anyway.


Stay safe.
Have fun.
Hope.
Love.
Rebirth.


_jakoby