Gosh.

School is over and I’m still a terrible blogger. S’not like I’ve had a ton of time anyway, with moving into a new a room, family here and just lots of life going on.
Lagoon last Friday. Man, that was EPIC. If I could go back and Groundhog that day, I would. Ridiculous that it’s already been 4 days since then. Life flying at me at 100mph, when is it gunna’ start to slow down? I need some time to think, some room to breathe, just a quick minute, okay?
Maybe I’ll get some pictures of the bus ride up.
Started moving into my new basement dwellings yesterday, pretty damn excited about that. Things went pretty smooth. Just a few more things to do. Like… Get a bed frame, reupholster my chair and move it down here, get a desk, my fridge, hang some ess up and hopefully get my tree painted!
Graduation practice in about an hour and a half. Super psyched for that with actual Graduation tomorrow at… 7? I think so. After these two events… I’ll probably only ever see a handful of all these people I’ve spent the better part of 7 years with. Extremely crazy.
Welp gotta’ go hop in the shower. Thought I better get a little update in while I’m not doing anything.
Stay Safe.

                    _Jakoby

Happy Graduation, Dick.

Thank you karma. You’ve got me confused here. Why this and why now? I just wanted to celebrate a happy final two weeks of high school and then, this. Maybe I’m just over-reacting because it’s fresh, I sure do hope so, because I hate this.
Car accident incase you’re wondering. Nothing to intense, just some douche speeding through a parking lot ramming into me. Smashed my right rear fender, pretty sure Brutus is totaled seeing as how repairs will cost more than what he’s worth, but he’s worth a lot  more to me. Dylon and Sarin seem relatively okay, some soreness, hope that’s all. That’s all that’s wrong with me, neck/back/shoulders sore, it’ll go away.
I just wanted to celebrate in happiness, yeah, it’s a week and a half away and yeah things will get brighter, because this isn’t that dark, but to me, it seems so. I just wanted to be selfish. I know that’s what it is. I wanted this to be about me in a good way. What’s so wrong about that? Is karma mad because I wanted to be the center, because I wanted to receive gifts, because I’ve worked for 12 years? Well, excuse me.
What I didn’t and don’t want is for my parents to now have to worry about fixing my car or getting a new one. Giving me my mum’s and getting her a new one. Any combo of that, I don’t want it to be about me in a negative way. I don’t want them to have to spare the expense because of me. Wish it were for me.
I wanted my gift at the end of school for what I’d worked for, not  because of what I’d done or what happened.
Hopefully and I con see my parents not thinking the same way, but as of right now, I feel terrible.
Too me, I guess it just seems a lot like a money factor and I definitely feel like a negative expense. They’ve been working on finishing my room forever, spending a lot of time and money on it, new furniture, new bathroom, new everything. I know they were/are planning something awesome for a graduation gift and now this.
It feels like added negative cost. I’m not such a burden. But, I feel it right now. I don’t want anything, but I do. Mostly I don’t though. I feel bad. I hope it goes away soon. I want to feel like I did 4 hours ago.
I’m selfish and I’m spoiled, I do know.
One other thing and…  I know it’s nothing, but it hurts like something… Come’on Jake. Let it go. It was a shaky moment, everyone’s a little weird. It’s fine.
I know.
But has it seemed like it longer…?

                    _Jakoby

Oh yeah.

I  have a blog. Hah. Been a while since I updated. That’s okay. No one reads it anyway. I need to get everyone hooked on blogging, like I tried to do with Twitter, worked a little! Anyway, I’ll write like people read it.
Sorry for the lack of updates been pretty busy lately. School, music, business, work[shit! I need to finish those tickets!] future. All sorts of stuff going on, you can relate in someway I hope.
Though the actual music hasn’t started yet. I believe I have a pretty solid line-up. You’ll read it here first who the members are. I don’t wanna’ say anything yet until we have anything tangible, ‘cause talking things up in the past has never amounted to anything, obviously. So:
Stay tuned for transmission.
Think of that as our/my mission statement. It works on deep levels. Try and find one for yourself. Much to be said on later days…
Stay Safe.

                     _Jakoby


P.S. Underscore or hyphen?

Logo Colours

Been messing around with colors for the band logo and these came out. Kinda' like the pastel of it. Less ominous looking and leaves it open for us to define our own sound and not have it defined by a name. The name which does have a deep meaning, so it's being kept. Maybe one of these days I'll post it...

[P.S. Apparently the color doesn't show up to well on this blog. So click this for a better look.
Not perfect yet. I'll keep working. Feel free to give input.]