Where do we[I] go now?

With that whole “high school” thing coming to a quick close it leaves me lost and wondering. What I was so sure of last week, I don’t know anymore[related to schooling, by the by]. I know what I want and I know how to get it… At least how to work for it. I just don’t know the exact direction to take. Not that there is any one direction to take, but my true direction. Where am I being pulled? No. Where should I lead myself? This isn’t anyone’s choice but my own. I shouldn’t jump at someone else’s opportunity just because it seems more likely at the moment. I’m not ready to move out and I’m not ready for a change like this. While it is an exciting thought, it’s not exactly what I want right now. It’s not what I’m ready for. Nor is it mine. My mum is right... I do get these hair-brained idea and immediately try to jump all over them. I need to slow down and take this as it comes. Put it together how I want it. Make it my own.
It’s not my idea and my love. It’s not an idea from me or my loved one and friends. I know I get chastised for being wishy-washy. But hey, fuck you negative nay-sayers. You con’t expect me to know exactly how to go about what I want. Nor can you blame me for being a little confused at the moment. A big thing is about to happen for me. Grandiose, at this point in my life. I believe that I’m going to do this my way. With my plans, my original blue prints. My way. Our life.


Remember that name. It's going to be big one day. Huge. Epic. Global.

-Jakoby