By pure...

Lack of interest and number of people here, I always feel like I'm writing to no one or one particular person.
It's a weird empty feeling.
Wish more people wrote.
Anything.

Just write, expression.
They say "Sing like no one's listening", but that really feels so empty.
I have a lot to say and sometimes you just really want people to hear it, or at have the opportunity or... At least know that you're even saying something at all.

Recently, I've been hanging out with a new group of people and... Actually doing something, even if it's nothing at all. It's still something and the best nothing I've ever been a part of.
It's so awesome to just walk into a new group of people and be so immediately accepted.
I mean... I guess it sort of started last Summer, but it seems new now.
Or at least the group has grown for me and my circles have definitely changed.
It's wonderful to have a group of people so comfortable with everyone and everyone gets along.
Sounds so cheesy and cliche, but it's really the simplest, best thing.

When you can just bum over to someone's apartment at 3am, realize there's nothing to do, toss around a few stupid jokes, laugh at the Cosmo's lyin' around and just be comfortable enough to have those around you fall asleep and know you could do the same.
It's simple and it's happiness.
It's new and refreshing and I get lost in the simplest of things, but I wont' even begin to complain.

Stay safe.

_jakoby

P.S. That came out nothing close to what I intended it to be when I started, but oh well.

I'm content with it.

It's true.

I'm lost, but I'm still looking.
I'm scared, but I'm still happy.
I don't know, But I'm finding
Out in every way there's something beautiful.
In every day, in every step you take.
In every breath that you make and steal from me.
It won't be long 'til I open eyes and let them, let me see.

Stay moving, because I know I am.

Stay safe.

_jakoby

I just...

Don't have the energy.
And I can't find the reasoning... To say all that I want to say.
I put it out, because I want to reach people.

Because I'd love for them to listen and understand.
I've had some of the deepest, most meaning conversations in the last week.
And... I just wish, so badly. That all of you, that everyone could be a part of all of this.

Of everything we say and everything we think.

It's definitely going to be a Movement.

It's definitely going to change things.

If you want it.

If you allow it.
It's all up to you.

I just want the option there for you.

To hold.

To have.

To understand.

To be able to see in some small way.
Or in the biggest way.

None of this makes sense to anyone but us... But it makes me feel better right now.

A little less pressure, a little less stress.
I don't mean to talk things up so much.

But, they really are there.
They really are on the verge.
I just don't know exactly how to convey it, and push it that last little bit.

We're so close.

And SO far away.
But EVERYTHING is exactly where it should be.
I have a lot of trouble handling that, even though I know it's true.

But, I am still a product of my generation and we want it all and we want it all now.
It will be had.
I just have to keep believing that myself and pushing through everything.
Anything and everything I'll ever want will happen.

This, I know.
This I truly believe.

Stay safe.

_jakoby

In every breath, an opportunity.

Just got really inspired.
Dunno' from what.

But I love when that wave hits.
It's a feeling unlike anything else.

Keeps me going.

"Every moment, a chance to try again.
In every breath, an opportunity."

Perhaps the best line I've ever written.
It's time to get back to my arts seriously.
With that fire and that passion.

Stay Safe.

_jakoby

I have the urge for...

A really long post. Delving into my thoughts, feelings and emotions.
Express all these things inside.
I have the urge, but not the energy.
Perhaps I'll do it later tonight.
For now, I'll use this.
I came across this quote, which is what actually inspired all this thinking.
It's weird, 'cause I was already in this mood... I had an idea of what I wanted to write about, what my mood and muse have been lately and then... This fell into my lap.
It's crazy how things happen.
Exactly how they need to.

Exactly where and when they need to be, so that it all fits.
Even when you don't think it fits.
It's fitting.

It's there.
It's placed.
For however long you allow it to remain, it is.
Anyway, here's the quote.
[lie. let me talk some more first]
It just describes... That urge.
That I have to be doing something.

Creating.
Making.

Or I just feel... Empty.

It's really hard to explain the feeling, but this quote really stoked me out.
And it's funny and fitting that all this should come together as I realized that every semi-serious to serious girlfriend I've ever had, has been an artist with a very creative mind. And not just a poser. Legitimately talented.
The connection I always find.
Now the quote:

"Any artistic person is essentially creating from an emotional extension of themselves. Regardless of the content, it always comes from a feeling, which propels us to have that... NEED to create."

It is such a need.

_jakoby

Stay Safe.