Will you ever...

Cease to amaze me?
No.
You will not.
As a collective group.
Two groups.
Three groups.
My biggest inspirations.
Starting with my current listen.
The stream of Circa Survive's newest album(up now on their Myspace).
[it's a link]
|BLUE SKY NOISE|

Good lord.

Such raw, unbridled emotion in such a smooth, put together package.
It's a lot more reigned in than their last albums, but it's no less emotive.
It's a concentrated mass of feeling, power and... I can't stop saying it, emotion.

Anthony Green has such a control over his voice.
It's a feeling of... Recklessness, but it's completely owned and controlled.
Like if you were to take a seat with a race car driver, that speed and power would appear uncontrolled to you, but to the driver, he's in complete control and knows just what he's doing.
Just raw emotion. It's all there, just listen.
Not to mention that artwork... Wow.
I'm enthralled by all forms of art, so I really get into every aspect of an album, get lost in that artist's universe.
They all create their own worlds and it's so amazing to wrapped in their myth.
That said...
No one, in my eyes(and ears), creates that world, the vision, the sound, the feeling better than my two biggest inspirations for all that I do.

30 Seconds To Mars and Angels & Airwaves.

Those bands, my heroes, have truly, complete universes.
I don't know if that's how they have envisioned them.
But that's clearly how I see them.
I don't think I can even begin to touch on the vastness and creativeness that they have created.

It's just a feeling and emotional state they place you in.
You just have to get lost in it.
Find the Universe for yourself.

Because, it can't be shown. I've tried on many occasions to describe the feeling and what I see, what I want to be done... But, it can only be said to extent, then it's for they to see. To feel.
I've gone through many a band member, searching. Looking for that musical, visionary, soul connection.
It's a really high place that I have envisioned.
Such major movements, such stunning pieces, bright lights, big stages, big sounds, Universal feelings, atmospheric touchings.
The best explanation is simply, a Universe.

That's what I have envisioned for SKS.
And I will not stop for anything short of everything I see.
A lifetime it will take and my lifetime I will give.

That's all I know, that's all I want.
To give myself to something so wholly and fully.
Pure dedication of this creation.

And it's not to say, please don't let it be assumed that I'm so wrapped up and in love with myself to allow for anything or anyone else, 'cause that definitely not it.
I won't be so conceited and narcissistic.
Though, I have been compared as such.
I won't claim to be a visionary, but I have a vision.
To share.
I want the world to know what goes on inside my head.
I want to showcase it, for whoever wishes to listen, to see, to dive into.
It won't be force fed, but it will be there.
An outlet. A Universe to be lost in. To enjoy yourself in.
Even trying to describe it now, it's difficult, I can't find the words to show what I mean and say what I feel and see.

More than music. More than sound.
An explosion of color, light, sound, energy, sweat and love.
An orgasm.
Ha.
But, how any Universe, in my belief, is created.
In one, epic, BIG BANG.
And then built from there.
Rome wasn't built in a day, and neither will a Universe be.
My Universe be.
Ours.
Grown from the core out.
That's the track I'm working on now.
The opener.
I'm doing this in order.

As a movement, the movement I see.
From the beginning to the ending.

Make The Universe.
Which was once "Take The Universe".
But before something can be had, it must first be created.
And as I see it now, what I want is not yet there, or here, and the only way to show, is to do.
So, I'm scrapping nearly everything SUNDAYkillSUNDAY thus far and starting anew.

Rebirth.
One of three ideals that I believe in, one of three that this SKS Universe will grow from.

Love.
Hope.
Rebirth.

Starting with the first track to Make The Universe.
"Big Bang Theory".
Tentatively titled.
A movement of sound and feeling into the growth, of a molecule, the birth of a star and the explosion of a Universe.

I sound so into myself...
But I'm not.
I just know what I want and I'm taking it.
I'm not being stopped.
And if conviction is wrong... If love, dedication and a vision are to be mocked...
Condemn me.
Mock me.

I know who I am as human.
I know what I will do.
I know I won't stop.
Do you?

Do you have a hold, a grip, an idea?

If we as humans lose vision, lose faith, lose dedication to ourselves and the world around us.

What are we doing?
Why are we here?
Make a move.
Make your move.
Let the world move at a thousand miles around you, but move with it.
Flow.

Sway.

Stay safe.

Stay dedicated.
Stay in love.

Stay yourself.
Stay human.

_jakoby

Some Things Just Float Away.

I don't know what I was thinking, but I was thinking wrong.
Still just need to let things go.
I'm great at being optimistic, but terrible at night in my late hour.
I need people. Need to be surrounded. Just need to be distracted.
I'm stressing myself out and I REALLY don't need to be. Especially over something so stupid as money, not to be a braggart, in no way at all, but I have it. So, all the less reason to stress over it.
I really don't know the reason.
I will have it and will continue to have it.
I guess it's just the thought of not having it.
Which again, is unnecessary. In the end, and beginning: It's just money. Pointless, monetary value placed on life.
You decide what your life is worth. What you do with it.
That's not all my stress...
But I really don't know what is.
Just that biting feeling in the back of your head.
The pit of your stomach. That uneasiness...
About to do some music and that will release it for sure.
As will this weekend. Friday, Saturday, Sunday, empty house and a whole day off tomorrow/today.
Gonna go see a man about some tattoos. I'm itching for more ink SO bad, I can hardly stand it, once you taste of ink, you really want more. Addiction? It's really something that gets to you. Your mind and body beg for more, that pure visual control over... You. I dunno how to explain, but it's excellent.
Then I still gotta get my taxes filed, then... then, The day is mine.
Feels so refreshing.
Already my stress is lifting.
A lot of SKS and a lot of playing.
My work on a piano ballad is really coming along.
Doing lyrics and vocals now, a chorus is all I have, but it sounds so good against this piece. To me, anyway.


Stay safe.
Have fun.
Hope.
Love.
Rebirth.


_jakoby

DECISIONS! Arg...

So yesterday... And the the day before, and a little while before
that, I thought I had it buttoned down on the bike that I wanted,
Kawasaki's 2008 ZX-6R. Cheaper, rad looks, better insurance deal and a
beast of a 599cc engine. The one I posted yesterday.
But... Before that decision was made, I was decided on Kawasaki's
literbike monster, the 2008 ZX-10R. This badass here:

A super aggressive beast with sharp lines and a roaring 998cc engine. Power out my ears.
I don't know what my hang up on choosing is! But it's nagging in the back (and front) and stressing me out a little(a lot)... Shih-fuck!
Urrgggguuuhhhh!

Granted insurance will be a bit more... Possibly a lot. Initial cost is more too... And I'll want to change the stock pipe immediately... So, overall cost is more in everyway, but still
my head justifies it... Can't decide :((
Stresss.
At least it's about something so ridiculous :)
I love life.

Stay safe!

_jakoby

Holy Shiz.

No update in quite some time.
What have I been up to?
A whole lot of nothings that have transformed into definite somethings.
Things at work are going well and for once, I actually don't loathe going in with all that's in me. New jobs and the same job and more money definite contributors. I don't love money, but I do love the freedom that it brings and allows for.
That said... I'm finally back on my saving track, well, have been since about February.
Back to saving for the reason I even got the job in the first place...
This bad boy:

And... All things continuing as they are, or increasingly better and they're seeming to be, I should be making the purchase right around the end of May.
A little bummed to miss out on Spring riding, oh well, my fault for getting off track!
All I'll need after that is the pretty little lady envisioned in my head...
A vision I've had for a while, but I'll do without for a while...
Also can't wait for rides with my brother and dad!
Just gotta convince my mum to let my dad purchase a bike again! She doesn't think it's fair... Psh. She just got a new vehicle.
And yeah, my dad's a bad ass. He used to race, ya know? So there!
My drumming, motorcycle racing, hockey playing father!

My dad could SO beat up your dad.

I'm even missing out on a Go Radio, A Day To Remember, 30 Seconds to Mars, Circa Survive, and Coheed & Cambria series of concerts to make this bike happen! Granted, I've already seen all but two of those bands, it's still pretty huge!
I will be making it the AVA concert that tail end of May. There's NO way I'm gonna miss their headlining show, I cannot!

Other shiz going on... Pretty positive of Spring vacay going down with Evan as a celebration of his late, but successful finishing of high school! I'm way proud of that dude, even more so than I would have been had he finished normally, it's gotta be super tough to go back after (mostly) everyone else has finished. Congrats to you, Buddy! =D
We were planning Cali-Forn-Eye-Eh, and some Hunnington Beach action, but now that may be changing, doesn't really matter to me! It's his choice and any way we do it, is gonna be effing epic.

On other epic notes... Gonna be flying into Denver mid-June for another show! SUPER pumped. Gonna be so bad ass.
I always feel so cool when traveling, gives me that touring, band feeling! So, flying ought to add to that!

I'm so pumped on life.
Things are so good, and even when they're not, I have the greatest ability to see the glass as half full.
And I'm very thankful for that.
Don't know where it comes from, but I have it.
Once I learned to stop focusing on love... Things just got better.
My head is lot more clear, and sure, I'd love for the romance... But I don't need, I'm doing A-okay without it.
And... Playing the game is fun too ;}

OH! Huge breakthrough in my music world, as far as personal battles go, which as an artist, I have many.
This win comes from always constant need to pump out music, no matter the quality, just make it, because that's what I do, right?
Wrong. Because after that fact, I always listen to what I have done and find myself disappointed by my creations.
Well, that is the Jakoby of old! And the new, has found a patience in my creations, that I have nothing to prove, I don't have to pump out music just to prove to others that I'm actually doing something.
I've learned and found the time(like I was rushed on it anyway...) to grow my music, progress and watch them evolve into masterpieces, not simply(seriously, it's not simple) write, record and produce songs all in one sitting, which I have been prone to do.

True, I still do that now, but I realized that this is the demoing process and after those initial notes are written... Put that song down and write another. Come back to the song when it's fresh to your ear, when your mind can actually hear again and put music together in your head, hear parts that aren't yet there and breed those ideas.
I'm very proud of this new understanding I have.

I've also been writing songs differently, just changing my process to keep thoughts and ideas constantly flowing, rather than thinking, "Oh, I need this part here, I must figure it out now."

Music first, then lyrics has always been my procedure for songs that are actually words, other things written have always just ended up as prose, poetry.

Now learning to... Do things in whatever order I wish!

That I have the ability to mold music to my words, which I have found... Creates a much more beautiful piece, in my ear at least.
Speaking of lyrics...
Here's some lines of something I was writing the other day.
And it's probably the most stoked I've ever been with the initial beginnings of song.
Sure, the words may transform a little, but still!
So happy with them.

I've told a lot of lies and that's how I got me by.
I swore on love, without the loss and never bat an eye.
Promised on trust, tasted the lust and never backed down.

She came with a sparkle in her eye and action on her mind.
Packaged with a soundtrack, songs by lovers, 20/20 if she ever looked back.
But her heart was set and our hearts met.

Lights out. Covers, deep. Breaths, shallow. Curves, steep.

Looking for the words to knock you from your feet.
Backs planted to sheets.
Ready to grow like Spring trees.
Ready. To. Go.

Gonna be a tasty, dirty, heavy, sexxxy jam.
I've got the music and sounds all swimming in my head.
Gonna turn out so sweet.
Sugar from flowers.
n_n

Pretty long update, it's been a while!
So sorry, and thank you if you read it all :]
I love you.

Stay safe!

_jakoby

Update of Nottthiiiiiiiin'.

Lots goin' on, but I don't feel like writing it all out!

Sorreh!

I guess your loss... But probably not too much. Ha.

This song has been sweet to my ears, so I thought I'd share.
It's Have Mercy by Select Start definitely a band worth checking out. Their EP <3 is worth purchasing. It's another of those that it's all I listened to for a solid 2 weeks.

Awkward silence, I graze your hand.
My heart is racing to comprehend.
Oh, I never fell for a girl I just met, but she's carefully taken my heart from my chest.

I don't believe in anything.
I don't believe in anything.

I'm not trying to make you blush.
It's been a week and I need your touch.
Something's telling me this could work out.
I'm keeping the baggage from holding us down.

I don't believe in anything.

Even though you haven't said, the words you say could kill this man.
This isn't much I'm offering, just know you mean the world to me.

Your lips are winning me over.
Your secrets rest on my shoulders.
I'll take you in.
I'll take you anywhere you want.

I've got the words if you've got desire.
You've got the moves to set me on fire.
It's much more than love.
It's one more than lust.
The sands of time, spilling out.
Let's make it count.
Don't talk.

Even though you haven't said, the words you say could kill this man.
This isn't much I'm offering, just know you mean the world to me.

Your lips are winning me over.
Your secrets rest on my shoulders.
I'll take you in.
I'll take you anywhere you want.

This moment's all I wanted.
I think we're on to something.
Nothing is holding us back.
You know and I know this heartbeat could crumble the world.

You'll never be over it.
Never been more proud of it.

It's all that I wanted.
It's all that wanted.

Even though you haven't said, the words you say could kill this man.
This isn't much I'm offering, just know you mean the world to me.

Your lips are winning me over.
Your secrets rest on my shoulders.
I'll take you in.
I'll take you anywhere you want.


Stay safe!

And perhaps next entry will actually be an update! Or at least something halfway interesting!
We'll shall see!
Oh! If you haven't, would please head over to http://www.myspace.com/sundaykillsunday and check out my tunes...? Leave some love, tell your friends, be a bad A, and expect more new stuff in the near future!

Thanks!

_jakoby